Write like a man

August 11th, 2010 § 4

…is what I do. According to two different web programmes that supposedly deduce your gender from the way you write. I submitted a blog post and the results were quite unabashedly male. I’ve been thinking about this because I have to review Interior Decoration which is an anthology of poetry by Indian women. It makes one think about the femaleness of writing and so on.

In other news, I’ve been adopted by cats. To be more exact, two cats (a male and a female) came into the house one morning, and sneaked into a cupboard. She went into labour and two hours later, Dobby was slapped by a white paw when he went sniffing to see what the odd smell was.  He went hysterical. So did I.

A, who is an expert on cats unlike the two of us, was summoned. He found one grey-white Tommy in there and promptly escorted him out. We came back into the room. Dobby went sniffing again. Another white paw emerged, and then a fully-formed, much-bristling mother cat. There was a litter of three in there, behind my lovely collection of bags.

We could hardly put the babies out in the cold and rain so we realised we’d have to court danger for a while (sworn enemies under one roof and all that). We bundled mother and children into an old suitcase and made place for them upstairs in the TV room. There was one tiny incident which ended with Dobby getting his face swiped. He was taken off to the vet for Tetanus shots and thought he was being punished for guarding the house from enemies.  All morning, he lay around the house looking bewildered at what life had tossed him.

Now that door stays closed, we guard their separation like hawks (or parents or zoo keepers), and we have stopped watching movies. The universe makes choices for you.

After six weeks, when they have stopped nursing, we will put some or all up for adoption. I say some because I’m harbouring tiny hopes of keeping one of them if I can persuade the grown-up dog and the child cat to be friends. The adults don’t have much of a chance since they started off so badly.  But isn’t she cute?

Meanwhile I’m trying to stay loving but detached and write my second collection. Like a man, I’m told.

Flânerie #1: Manikyavelu Mansion

July 12th, 2010 § 3

The National Gallery of Modern Art (or Manikyavelu Mansion as I think of it) is one of my favourite places in the city for some obvious reasons — art, trees, a building made for stories. I was there again about a week ago, noticing the way things are framed: the building by trees, the sculptures on the lawn by the gigantic fountain, the fountain by the even more gigantic tree behind it. Perhaps the eye naturally travels to this because one is in an art gallery and predisposed to seeing in a certain way.

I stared at the sweeping woman in front of the fountain for longer than deemed polite. It just seemed miraculous somehow, this tiny figure caring for all this, tiny and orange in the foreground. A little orange miracle.

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In the lobby, the watchman’s chair was empty. I don’t know where he was but the emptiness of the chair in that long corridor, framed by the opening and the tree, made me think about him more than if he had actually been present.

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The place is full of gigantic trees and because the mansion is only two storeys high, they tend to be easily visible. Two large rooms on both floors of the mansion hold the contemporary art collection. There are tall windows in the corners outside which the trees lean and sway, a natural sweep up to the sky. Upstairs, smaller rooms house works by the Tagores, Nandalal Bose, Ram Kinkar Baij, Amrita Shergill and Jamini Roy,  These rooms are flanked by generous verandahs and the views are lavish. See the plum tree’s post on the trees at Manikyavelu Mansion. I came across her post when I googled the Mansion in hopes of finding something on its history. (I didn’t find anything so helpful links are most welcome.) Her pictures bring home the fact that trees really are the central attraction in this place of art.

This reminds me of a bit in WG Sebald’s Austerlitz where he talks about the Bibliotheque Nationale in Paris, about how its design and hugeness intimidates and frustrates the visitor. There, according to Sebald, the largeness of the towers make one uneasy, even frightened. At Manikyavelu Mansion, we have to deal with largeness but of a different kind, that of nature.  And it is interesting that for the most part, largeness in nature — the sea, mountains, tall trees — tend to be relaxing rather than threatening.

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I took pictures of the mansion in colour and changed some of them to greyscale on the computer. It’s interesting to see how it immediately looks more somber. All shadows and reflections. It also looks older. Is that because one associates black & white with old pictures? Or is it because some of the things that contrive to make it look less old, like new paint, are not as obvious?

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To the side of this structure, there is a small cafe which reminded me of a school canteen — very functional, no frills. Tea, coffee, some soft drinks, packets of biscuits and chips. In large supermarkets, I tend to feel dazed and bewildered, even annoyed, by the surfeit of choices. The limited choices here made me feel simple, content. As if the act of choosing something to eat or drink had been restored to its natural proportions.

I sat there and drank a Mirinda and watched the building, its giant driveway and its verandahs, and wondered about the noise and life it must have contained once when some large family lived in it.

Unlike some art galleries, this one is very quiet especially on a weekday afternoon.

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And there was a red door with a Banyan tree in the foreground which I photographed because it seemed mysterious, a little like something I had imagined, something from a childhood story that would lead god knows where.  Probably only to the inner workings of the place. Still, it was red. It was behind a tree. There are things to be said for that.

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Postponed

July 9th, 2010 § 0

Tomorrow’s reading at Goobe’s Book Republic has been postponed to some time next week. Will publish details soon. Sorry about this.

Reading

July 7th, 2010 § 2

I will be reading from City of Water at Goobe’s Book Republic on Church Street. This is also called Church Street Inn and is in the same line of shops as KC Das. The reading will be on the terrace.

Place: Goobe’s Book Republic, Church Street

Date: Saturday, July 10.

Time: 5 pm

Do come!

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Also, three poems of mine, ‘Dolls’, ‘The Mouth’ and ‘The Vivid Stream’ were published in Asia Writes. Read them here.

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And Deepa Ganesh’s interview of me in The Hindu

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ps: What dreadful, short posts. What laziness. I’m going to do better soon.

Next TFA Reading

July 7th, 2010 § 0

The next TFA reading is tomorrow: Deepika Arwind and Biswamit Dwibedy will be reading from their work at Crossword, Bookstore, ACR Towers, Ground Floor, 32 Residency Road, at 6.30 pm. Arwind writes poetry and fiction. Her work has appeared in various journals and magazines, and she’s been doing theatre since she was in school. Dwibedy is a poet/artist. He has an MFA in Writing from Bard College, New York. His first volume of poetry, Ozalid, was published by 1913 Press in 2010.

What an exciting week

June 2nd, 2010 § 14

Yesterday, there was a gas cylinder leak in the house. It should have been simpler to solve than it was. There was illness involved and allergies. Allergies can really fuck up your sensory responses. Somebody in the complex has used strong fertilizer. It smells very similar to gas and I was getting both smells. The cylinder is kept in an alcove in the outer wall of the house. The alcove is gated and locked. Panic causes loss of memory. Keys and combinations require memory. I remember rummaging for hammers and torches. Also, shame and anger for being in trouble, then self-pity, then guilt for the self-pity, and an irrational wish that someone else would deal with it so I could go back to my study and write my article. Immediately after, I thought about this blog post. Then, I thought about doing a backup of my work. Also, how being an adult means knowing how to recognise the many smells of death. Also, how people should use less fertilizer, especially for decorative gardens.

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More cheerfully, there’s an interesting BFS film fest at Ashirvad on June 4, 5, 6. It’s a retrospective of films by Anjali Monteiro and KP Jayasankar. There are three short films called Irani Cafe Instructions, Breasts and Agreement around poems by Nissim Ezekiel, Kutti Revathi and Salma respectively. There’s also Our Family, which I’ve watched and love. Details here.

This time’s Toto Funds the Arts reading is of Aditya Sudarshan’s new play. It is tomorrow at 6.30 pm at Crossword on Residency Road. Aditya Sudarshan is a fiction writer based in Delhi. He is the author of a detective novel, A Nice Quiet Holiday (Westland Books, 2009) and several published short stories. He is also a scriptwriter for NDTV’s political comedy show, “The Great Indian Tamasha”. Sensible People, his first play, “is set in a middle-class milieu in Central Delhi. It is the story of two well-respected bureaucratic families that are forced to face up to scandal and re-examine the values they live by.” It will be read by Lakshmi Krishnamurty, Priya Rao, Shashank Purushotham, Deepika Arwind , Swetanshu Bora and Neha Miglani.

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I’ve been ill continuously for a while. Which means I want to crawl into a hole and be the opposite of friendly  until it all blows over. This is because of self-pity and the belief that misery when wallowed in will feel like a warm, fluffy pillow. It’s also because of vulnerability which is hitting such a high note these days that my ears want to burst.

And blogging seems to me to be an activity that requires a mix of friendliness and honesty (aka vulnerability) and other leafy-green things.

But somebody mentioned that Jeet Thayil said at a workshop that just as carpenters don’t get up in the morning and say, ‘I’m not in the mood to make furniture today’, poets shouldn’t get up and say ‘I’m not in the mood to make poems’. Since this is much hearsay, I hope he really did say that. (Take it as a very loose quote, practically a non-quote. But I like the thought and it wasn’t mine so I must loosely quote.)

Extending that, can writers of any sort wake up on any day and say ‘I’m not in the mood to be vulnerable today’?

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There’s an interesting series on at Very Like A Whale about poets and technology. And at Poetry Foundation, is there more to life than poetry, like say, laundry? I love doing laundry. Also, cleaning and re-organising and cooking. But sometimes, these can become reasons for procrastination or avoidance. I suppose the trick is to recognise why you’re doing something at a given moment, and always be aiming to do the right thing at the right time for the right reasons. How exhausting. I thought about this yesterday after the incident. That if I’d been less reluctant to leave my computer, I might have reacted quicker.

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I’ve added a Library Thing widget to the sidebar, mostly because I like looking at book covers and this seems like a convenient way to have some around. There’s no real order to the books in there though. I’ve added some recent books but I’ll probably go backwards and add some earlier ones, and then whatever I read next. So it’s not a chronicle really, more like a cloud. Also, I’ve moved all links to poems published in journals to the page titled Poetry. Supernally clever idea, yes?

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Some news

May 20th, 2010 § 2

Three poems in the latest issue of Mascara Literary Review. And two poems in Hari Batti’s Green Light Dhaba.

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I’m in this article in HT Horizons. According to it, my typical day involves reading, reading, and well, not much else. Not sure where they got that idea from but it sounds nice. Kind of a dream life. Also, this article about City of Water appeared in Bangalore Mirror today.

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I had written about South African poet Loftus Marais some time back and I’m really thrilled to see him on PIW. It means that translations of some of his poems are now online.

The Launch

May 14th, 2010 § 3

So, I wore pink. I had planned to wear black but an ironing disaster got in the way. Maybe it was a good thing because the book is black and white and it would have looked like I don’t know any other colours. The launch went as launches go–I read for about half an hour. Then Sridala and I conversed, which means she asked intelligent questions and I tried to answer the questions and I remembered to ask one question back between saying lots of things about my writing, half of which I don’t remember and half of which, I will change my mind about. I’m always envious of people who work out a theory around their writing and seem like they will stick to it forever. I will get very bored if I have to stick to any theory forever. So the writing will come as it comes. And I’ll say different things about it at different times.

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As of now, the books are available at Sahitya Akademi outlets in major cities and in Crossword at Residency Road in Bangalore.

Also, in Bombay, People’s Book House at Fort will apparently source it from SA if you ask. Phone: (022) 22873768 , (022) 24362474. Address: 15, Ground Floor, Meher House, Cawasjit Patel Street, Fort. Landmark: Near Meher House.

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One more picture:

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I was badly prepared for the signing. I had left my pen in my bag so I had to use other people’s pens. And they were not interesting ink colours like pink or green which I generally use at home. I must remember to keep my pens ready next time. I am hoping there will be a next time in another city some time soon.

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The most difficult question Sridala asked me was to do a Kolatkar-style telling of influences. This is Kolatkar’s list:

Whitman, Mardhekar, Manmohan, Eliot, Pound, Auden, Hart Crane, Dylan Thomas, Kafka, Baudelaire, Heine, Catullus, Villon, Jynaneshwar, Namdev, Janabai, Eknath, Tukaram, Wang Wei, Tu Fu, Han Shan, C, Honaji, Mandelstam, Dostoevsky, Gogol, Isaac Bashevis Singer, Babel, Apollinaire, Breton, Brecht, Neruda, Ginsberg, Barth, Duras, Joseph Heller … Gunter Grass, Norman Mailer, Henry Miller, Nabokov, Namdeo Dhasal, Patthe Bapurav, Rabelais, Apuleius, Rex Stout, Agatha Christie, Robert Shakley, Harlan Ellison, Balchandra Nemade, Durrenmatt, Aarp, Cummings, Lewis Carroll, John Lennon, Bob Dylan, Sylvia Plath, Ted Hughes, Godse Bhatji, Morgenstern, Chakradhar, Gerard Manley Hopkins, Balwantbuva, Kierkegaard, Lenny Bruce, Bahinabai Chaudhari, Kabir, Robert Johnson, Muddy Waters, Leadbelly, Howling Wolf, Jon Lee Hooker, Leiber and Stoller, Larry Williams, Lightning Hopkins, Andre Vajda, Kurosawa, Eisenstein, Truffaut, Woody Guthrie, Laurel and Hardy.

I had real trouble with this because any list like this has got to be flippant and fun like Kolatkar’s and I wasn’t really in that sort of mood. I named some eclectic things like Ghalib, Bollywood and Neil Gaiman besides various poets–Ramanujan, Rilke, Plath, Kolatkar, D’Souza. In related news, see Aditi’s post on mood boards which I thought was a cool way to keep track of influences. I think it makes more sense than a definitive, immutable list of influences. At the moment, my mood board has Anne Carson, WG Sebald, Selima Hill, Arun Kolatkar, The Single Man (though I thought the movie was just so-so), Edward Said, heat, rain, the smell of fresh dung, Hanuman, various travel stories, a Scottish loch, some sculptures from the Louvre, some scientific concepts. Or at least, these are the things I’m conscious of.

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Would love to see you there

April 30th, 2010 § 5

Toto Funds the Arts
is pleased to invite you
to the launch of Anindita Sengupta’s
first volume of poetry, City of Water, where she will be
‘in conversation’ with poet/writer Sridala Swami

Venue: Crossword Bookstore, ACR Towers, Ground Floor, 32 Residency Road, Bangalore – 1
Date and time: Friday, 7 May 2010 at 6.30 pm

Anindita Sengupta’s poetry has been published in several journals including Eclectica, Nth Position, Yellow Medicine Review, Origami Condom, Pratilipi, Cha: An Asian Journal, Kritya, and Muse India. It has also appeared in the anthologies Mosaic (Unisun, 2008), Not A Muse (Haven Books, 2009), and Poetry with Prakriti (Prakriti Foundation, 2010). In 2008, she received the Toto Funds the Arts Award for Creative Writing, annually given to two writers under thirty in India. In 2010, she was the Charles Wallace writer-in-residence at University of Kent in England. Sengupta, who lives in Bangalore, is also a freelance writer and journalist and has contributed articles to The Guardian (UK), The Hindu, Outlook Traveler and Bangalore Mirror. Her personal website is at http://aninditasengupta.com.

Sridala Swami’s poetry and fiction has appeared or is forthcoming in various journals including Chandrabhaga, Pratilipi, New Quest, Wasafiri, Asian Cha, Desilit and the Creative Writing Issue of The South Asian Review (28:3, 2007). Her work also features in The Bloodaxe Book of Contemporary Indian Poets (Bloodaxe, 2008); in the anthology, Not A Muse (Haven Books, 2009) and in First Proof: 4 (Penguin Books, 2009). Her book of poems The Reluctant Survivor was published in 2007.

“City of Water is remarkable for its supple language and tensile strength. Her images are sharp and there is integrity about the core of feeling that propels the poem. One cannot spot any weak moments either in terms of emotion or language….Anindita Sengupta never lets a poem run away with her. Like all good poets, she is original both in her way with words and her personal angle of vision.”

–– Keki Daruwalla in the Preface to City of Water

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Okay, I’ve been lazy and just pasted the official invite but really, would love to see you there. It’s more fun to be nervous in front of people one knows. Even if it’s online. Know what I mean?

Boland on Poetic Dilemma

April 5th, 2010 § 2

I’ve been reading Poetry in Theory, which is an anthology of essays by poets and philosophers written between 1900 and 2000 and today, I read Eavan Boland’s essay The Woman Poet: Her Dilemma. She talks about how the Irish woman poet had to fight multiple ‘force fields’ every time she sat down to write–’romantic heresy’ on the one hand and separatist feminism on the other. Romantic heresy ’sets limits on what is to count as poetic experience’. It allowed a woman poet to write only about certain things, ‘poetic’ things. She could write about other things only as long as she invested them with sufficient ‘poetic experience’. Feminism liberated her to write about her everyday experiences but prescribed the mood and tone, that of anger. For a poet, both were equally restrictive and stunting.

Boland wrote this essay in 1986-7, twenty years ago and she was speaking very specifically about conditions in Ireland. Some of it may be relevant even now, and even in other places where British poetry is an influence. Or the specific force fields may differ but the general notion may still be relevant.

For example, I can think of two different force fields that affect me, and possibly, other IE poets–what the British and Americans say English poetry should be and what people who write in other Indian languages say poetry should be. The feminist identity does not affect me as much, or not that I’m aware of. I do write about women a lot but that’s never been agenda-driven, more a natural outcome of preoccupations at the time.

The way Boland confronted the dilemma was to look at other art forms that provided a different way of looking. And she found a way to break through in painting:

The precedents for this were in painting rather than poetry…In the genre painters of the French eighteenth century — in Jean Baptiste Chardin in particular — I saw what I was looking for. Chardin’s paintings were ordinary in the accepted sense of the word. They were unglamorous, workaday, authentic. Yet in his work, these objects were not merely described; they were revealed. The hare in its muslin bag, the crusty loaf, the woman fixed between menial tasks and human dreams — these stood out, a commanding text.

This part resonated with me. I love the way Chardin builds tension, even menace, into a collection of mundane things. The cat looks poised to jump in both these pictures and one imagines the chaos that will follow–the kitchen disordered, people screaming, perhaps the meal for a party or big event ruined, fights as a result, domestic squalor. The possibility of so much noise and living in this ordinary kitchen moment.

By the time I started writing, we were no longer mired in romantic heresy (thank god). I think there was a happy mix of ‘poetic’ subjects and the ordinary in our English poetry which meant that I never felt that kind of constraint. The equivalent force field I can think of would be political or socially engaged poetry. As I was telling someone yesterday, I burden under quite a bit of guilt. How can one not bear witness to terrible things? Isn’t that self-indulgent? At the same time, I recently trashed three different poems — on the Gujarat riots, the Bhopal tragedy, and on Kashmiri widows respectively — because I felt they were just not working as art. I was not being able to get into the situations enough to bear witness with any integrity. It’s okay to write shallow poems sometimes. Less okay to write them on the backs of other people’s tragedies.

Another bit that resonated with me:

From painting, I learned something else of infinite value to me. Most young poets have bad working habits. They write their poems in fits and starts, by feast or famine. But painters follow the light. They wait for it and do their work by it. They combine artisan practicality with vision.

The way she uses that is to find a time in her daily routine that would amount to her ‘best light’, and make the most of that time. This is relevant for a lot of people who have to balance day jobs or children with writing. I don’t really have to do that at the moment but I think it’s a good principle to work by in any case. Painterly habits also makes me think of Monet’s painting of the Rouen Cathedral which he did in different lights at different times of the day, to see how it changed. One of the things I’ve been trying is to read / edit a poem at different times in a day and see how that works.

She ends with saying that the ‘dilemma persists; the cross-currents continue.’

What I wished most ardently for myself at a certain stage of my work was that I might find my voice where I had found my vision….Artistic forms are not static. Nor are they radicalised by aesthetes and intellectuals. They are changed, shifted, detonated into deeper patterns only by the sufferings and self-deceptions of those who use them.

I like that last line a lot. Sufferings, but especially self-deceptions.